My Name is Molly and I Love to Eat

I love food. I love to cook it, smell it, see it, and most of all, eat it. And that would all be OK if I didn't obsess over it. If I didn't use it to deal with my feelings, whatever they may be; if I didn't eat when I'm bored, happy, sad, excited, celebrating, watching TV, reading a book, feeling sorry for myself, or any one of a million other things. I also really like wine. Talk about empty calories.

I've tried off and on for years to lose weight and change my lifestyle to include regular exercise and better eating habits. I generally do really well for a short time and then really poorly for a long time. I also suffer from depression and some social anxiety. I know that when I'm exercising regularly it makes a world of difference. I was doing really well this past spring. My weight was down, I was feeling a lot more confident. The future seemed brighter than it had in years. I was running every-other day and eating healthily. Then our 10 year high school reunion came and went, my knee started hurting and I stopped running and started eating not so healthily and way to much of what is actually good for me. That was in June. Now it's August. It's so far passed time to get back on track, it's not even funny.

So, I have high hopes for this blog. I think it will be really great to be connected to others that are struggling with weight loss and lifestyle change. I haven't weighed myself in months and I have no idea what my real goals are. So, I'll work on that and let you all know. Right now I plan to start running again and I know I need to stop eating at night (we're talking post 10 p.m. snack while I'm watching TV.) And portion control. That's huge. Maybe I'll take up knitting. I need something to do with my hands while I watch TV, etc., besides sticking them into a cracker box...

Anyway, thanks for starting this, girls! Reading your posts gives me courage and motivation. And good luck to us all! :)