I don't feel like doing anything. Seriously nothing. I feel extremely restless and yet entirely unmotivated. I hate this feeling. And I know that when I feel this way I really just need to do SOMETHING. So goals for today:
drink 3 bottles of water
track calories
make appt with my counselor
run some errands that I've been putting off
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Thursday
Today's goal is to drink as much water as possible. I did well yesterday, however I have a lot of puffiness still in my fingers especially. I am hoping that when I weigh on Friday I will at least be under 220 again. I bought some groceries last night as I was down to my last 2 eggs. I have some chicken to cook today, I'm not sure what I am going to do with it. I also bought some alfredo sauce and mushrooms so I might make chicken with that.
I saw some makeup that I want to try so that will be my reward when I (finally) reach 215! Then when I get down to 200 my reward is going to be having my hair colored.
Today's goals:
Track Everything.
do some sort of exercize
Drink 4 bottles of water
Odd side note:
I had an egg white omelet with some ground turkey then I put sour cream, cilantro, and salsa on the top this morning and it was so gross! Seriously it tasted fishy or something. Everything was fresh and I tasted everything separately and it all tasted fine but for some reason putting that combo together, YUCK!
I saw some makeup that I want to try so that will be my reward when I (finally) reach 215! Then when I get down to 200 my reward is going to be having my hair colored.
Today's goals:
Track Everything.
do some sort of exercize
Drink 4 bottles of water
Odd side note:
I had an egg white omelet with some ground turkey then I put sour cream, cilantro, and salsa on the top this morning and it was so gross! Seriously it tasted fishy or something. Everything was fresh and I tasted everything separately and it all tasted fine but for some reason putting that combo together, YUCK!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
New Goals
I weighed myself this morning for the first time in a little over two weeks: 173.6. That's up 2.2 from my last weigh in. And while I don't have hard data, I know it's down from whatever I managed to get my weight up to by eating mostly cheese and bread and qdoba for the past two weeks. But I'm going to be a glass half full person and just be conent (and surprised) that it's not higher.
So, on to the new goals:
Mon., Feb. 1, 2010 - weigh under 170. Even if it's 169.9.
Wed., Feb. 10, 2010 - weigh 165.
Fri., Feb. 26, 2010 - weigh 160. That's right about 2 lbs per week for the next 6 weeks.
I'm committed to this. And I'm really excited to get going and feel good about my body. Thanks for your support, you guys! It means a lot to me!! I can't wait to see what we all can accomplish in the coming months and this year! :)
So, on to the new goals:
Mon., Feb. 1, 2010 - weigh under 170. Even if it's 169.9.
Wed., Feb. 10, 2010 - weigh 165.
Fri., Feb. 26, 2010 - weigh 160. That's right about 2 lbs per week for the next 6 weeks.
I'm committed to this. And I'm really excited to get going and feel good about my body. Thanks for your support, you guys! It means a lot to me!! I can't wait to see what we all can accomplish in the coming months and this year! :)
Wednesday
148.6 this morning. Only .4 off of my lowest so far.
So, big thing in my world - - drumroll pleeeaaseee........
We're getting new floors this week/weekend! :) Vanessa's little brother is helping us (of course we're paying him a considerable amount) replace our floors in our entryway, dining room, hallway, and kitchen! I am SO excited I can't tell you! We're going to stay at my parents' house for a couple days while our house is torn to shambles and we'll start tonight. What I'm hoping to do is: put the kids to bed tonight at my mom's and then Aarond and I come back to the house and take up the trim and move furniture and stuff. Then PAINT since we'll have the floor trim up anyway and won't care if the carpet gets paint on it. Cross your fingers that we can get a considerable amount done tonight b/c I'm hoping that in the morning Aaron can rip up the carpet, etc and then Bryce will be here after 2 or so to help, then they have all day Fri and Sat and hopefully it'll be done. In my perfect world, they'd also do the hall bathroom (we already have the materials for it, but it wasn't in the original agreement w/Bryce), but I doubt that'll happen.
So Molly, if you're feeling up to it, wanna help Aaron and I paint tonight? lol
The bad thing about it, is we'll be staying at my parents... and we all know how well I do there. lol
So, big thing in my world - - drumroll pleeeaaseee........
We're getting new floors this week/weekend! :) Vanessa's little brother is helping us (of course we're paying him a considerable amount) replace our floors in our entryway, dining room, hallway, and kitchen! I am SO excited I can't tell you! We're going to stay at my parents' house for a couple days while our house is torn to shambles and we'll start tonight. What I'm hoping to do is: put the kids to bed tonight at my mom's and then Aarond and I come back to the house and take up the trim and move furniture and stuff. Then PAINT since we'll have the floor trim up anyway and won't care if the carpet gets paint on it. Cross your fingers that we can get a considerable amount done tonight b/c I'm hoping that in the morning Aaron can rip up the carpet, etc and then Bryce will be here after 2 or so to help, then they have all day Fri and Sat and hopefully it'll be done. In my perfect world, they'd also do the hall bathroom (we already have the materials for it, but it wasn't in the original agreement w/Bryce), but I doubt that'll happen.
So Molly, if you're feeling up to it, wanna help Aaron and I paint tonight? lol
The bad thing about it, is we'll be staying at my parents... and we all know how well I do there. lol
Mallory's Wednesday Goals
It's always amazing to me how easy it is to have a "bad day". Yesterday our sewage was backing up into our bathtub and I had all four kids. Thank goodness Justin didn't have to go to work until 3 yesterday and he was there, so we called a plumber, and he quoted us over 350 dollars to take our toilet off and snake the drain out to the street. So we sent him on his way and Justin went to Home Depot and rented the 100 foot snake. We took the toilet off (which was 125 dollars of the price and took 5 minutes) and snaked the drain and now it seems great. So the total we spent was 60 for the rental and then 5 for a new wax ring and some new caps to cover the bolts.
But, when things like that happen I use them as an excuse to eat. I mean a handful of animal crackers here and there, coffee with milk, then a pb and j sandwich on kid bread, and it just kept getting worse. Ah well, here I am today and ok with it because it was the best I could do yesterday. Today is gonna be great.
Today's goals:
Drink water
Track all food
But, when things like that happen I use them as an excuse to eat. I mean a handful of animal crackers here and there, coffee with milk, then a pb and j sandwich on kid bread, and it just kept getting worse. Ah well, here I am today and ok with it because it was the best I could do yesterday. Today is gonna be great.
Today's goals:
Drink water
Track all food
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
I'm a Work in Progress
I haven't even looked at this blog since I left for Denver on Dec. 28. It's so great to see that you all are carrying on and seem to be doing well. :)
Right about New Years Day I had, for lack of a better word, a breakdown. And it felt just like this whole past year of healing and trying to crawl out from under the rock I had been living under hadn't even happened. There were several factors as to why this happened (none of which were related to weight loss) and I'm not going to go into it, but basically I spent a week in a house in Denver by myself (except for the cat and thank god he was there) feeling incredibly sad and alone and scared of the world. It was horrible and I don't expect any of you to understand. What I want to get a across here is that I wasn't able to be there for people I wanted to be there for, including posting on this blog. I couldn't bring myself to even look at this blog. My anxiety disorder is such that I try to protect myself by not interacting with people and then I feel more isolated and more anxious and it spins out of control. I wasn't able to answer the phone or even check my email. I spent much of 2008 - and 2007 and 2006 -living like that and to feel that again was really scary. I wanted so badly to come home and move on with my life. Because the thing is, I am a work in progress - aren't we all? Before New Years I was thinking a lot about how far I had come the past year and how well I was doing. And while that's true, that breakdown made it very clear that I still have a lot of work to do and a lot of life to live.
I've been thinking about goals for this year, not just in weight loss, but in all areas of life. I don't believe in New Year's Resolutions - too easy to set myself up for failure. So, I'm going to post something about that later this week. I'm going to start back with daily goals tomorrow and I'm going to rejoin the weigh-ins on Friday.
Happy New Year, everyone :)
Right about New Years Day I had, for lack of a better word, a breakdown. And it felt just like this whole past year of healing and trying to crawl out from under the rock I had been living under hadn't even happened. There were several factors as to why this happened (none of which were related to weight loss) and I'm not going to go into it, but basically I spent a week in a house in Denver by myself (except for the cat and thank god he was there) feeling incredibly sad and alone and scared of the world. It was horrible and I don't expect any of you to understand. What I want to get a across here is that I wasn't able to be there for people I wanted to be there for, including posting on this blog. I couldn't bring myself to even look at this blog. My anxiety disorder is such that I try to protect myself by not interacting with people and then I feel more isolated and more anxious and it spins out of control. I wasn't able to answer the phone or even check my email. I spent much of 2008 - and 2007 and 2006 -living like that and to feel that again was really scary. I wanted so badly to come home and move on with my life. Because the thing is, I am a work in progress - aren't we all? Before New Years I was thinking a lot about how far I had come the past year and how well I was doing. And while that's true, that breakdown made it very clear that I still have a lot of work to do and a lot of life to live.
I've been thinking about goals for this year, not just in weight loss, but in all areas of life. I don't believe in New Year's Resolutions - too easy to set myself up for failure. So, I'm going to post something about that later this week. I'm going to start back with daily goals tomorrow and I'm going to rejoin the weigh-ins on Friday.
Happy New Year, everyone :)
Tuesday
I weighed this morning, and if I remember right, it was 149.8, which isn't too bad. We had sushi last night and then went somewhere else for dessert. Aaron and I each got one and when they came, they were gigantic! I had two bites of Aaron's (yummmm, bread pudding!) and about half of mine (yummy brownie and ice cream). I soooo wanted to eat all of it, but I was starting to feel sick. In fact, I want to eat it now. I'm wishing I had brought the rest home in a box. I had even considered it last night but Aaron was the one that said "no, just leave it. You'll feel better about it." Good for him keeping me on track.... if it was here, it SO would have been eaten already.
See, this is the problem with me and sugar (and probably everyone and sugar). If I live w/o it for awhile, then I'm fine but the minute that I have it, say in the form of a gooey brownie and ice cream, that's all I think about and all I want. DAMN you SUGAR! .... ok, maybe that was overreacting, but seriously, it's like my drug of choice.... that and caffeine.
Here are my goals for today:
*Stay away from sugar - a lot easier when I stay at home, so that's what I'm doing today
*drink lots of water - I'd better get on this
*Calories around 1250.
*Track all my food.
*Make some chicken to put in the fridge for easy lunches and dinners.
In other goals:
*Keep my house clean and get it cleaner. This is hard to do with two hurricanes running around. But they are CUTE hurricanes.
*Work on baby shower stuff. CARRIE - you're invited to the baby shower for Jaime, and should have an invite on Sunday, if not before, but it's Fri the 29th!
See, this is the problem with me and sugar (and probably everyone and sugar). If I live w/o it for awhile, then I'm fine but the minute that I have it, say in the form of a gooey brownie and ice cream, that's all I think about and all I want. DAMN you SUGAR! .... ok, maybe that was overreacting, but seriously, it's like my drug of choice.... that and caffeine.
Here are my goals for today:
*Stay away from sugar - a lot easier when I stay at home, so that's what I'm doing today
*drink lots of water - I'd better get on this
*Calories around 1250.
*Track all my food.
*Make some chicken to put in the fridge for easy lunches and dinners.
In other goals:
*Keep my house clean and get it cleaner. This is hard to do with two hurricanes running around. But they are CUTE hurricanes.
*Work on baby shower stuff. CARRIE - you're invited to the baby shower for Jaime, and should have an invite on Sunday, if not before, but it's Fri the 29th!
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