Ya, I haven't posted anything since September 11th. I'm totally on top of it. If you haven't heard, my work life has been crazy and it is just now starting to calm down. My diet has been crazy as well and unfortunately as of Monday I was up to 263.8. After some miracle of eating I lost 3 pounds overnight and I weigh today 260.8. I don't want to be obsessive about weighing myself and so I am just going to be weighing myself once a week and I am rededicating myself to posting every Friday. Otherwise, I'll go crazy!
I have recently taken a step back to re-evaluate goals and life in general. Vegetarianism is out for right now. I was having to go to the store like every other day and one week I spent almost $200 in food. The husband wasn't too happy about that. I felt that I was constantly preparing food and worrying about what I was eating. I still believe that a Vegetarian lifestyle is a better way of life, and one day it will happen. For right now I am starting small. I've been slowly cutting out Dairy products, my body does not digest them properly and I just feel better when I'm not eating them. I think that is a good place to start.
I can't make it to the gym for some reason? Every day I set my alarm for 5:00 am and everyday I change it to 7. This is a pretty weird thing for me because I have always been a morning person and lately I haven't been able to pull myself out of bed. After looking through a few other warning signs I am going to be seeing the Dr to determine if I have Type 2 Diabetes. I got tested about 3 years ago and they said that I was almost there and if I didn't lose weight it would turn into that. Don't you think that is enough to scare a person into losing weight? What is wrong with me?
I have a friend that told me I need to do positive affirmations. Talk positively to myself daily. So I have this standing mirror in my bedroom that I wrote some positive affirmations with a erasable marker on. She said that the phrases should be in the present and that I should put them somewhere I would see them all the time. The mirror was the perfect place, I have read them so many times! Here is what I wrote:
*You are losing weight
*You are exercising 5 times a week
*You are controlling your eating and portion control
*You are taking control of your body
This is my goal this week. To read these affirmations every time I pass this mirror. Its a small goal but a good one.
Short term goal: 235 pounds by January 1st 2010
Long term goal: 200 by April 1st 2010
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Welcome back, Carrie! I'm glad to hear that work is calming down a bit for you. :)
ReplyDeleteI like your goals! Sorry the vegetarian thing isn't working out the way you thought. It really sucks that the foods that are really the best for us also seem to be the most expensive. But I'm glad you're not giving up on it!
I hope your doctor appt. goes well. My dad is type 2 and I've gotten quite an education on it in the last 10 months. I really hope you don't have to deal with it.
Anyway, hope you have great week! See you back here Friday!
Yay Carrie, I am so glad you are back with us and that work is getting better.
ReplyDeleteIt's terrible that all the food that is so good for us is so much money! It makes me cry to go to the grocery store and spend $200. Giving up dairy is a great start!
I will keep you in my thoughts for your doctor's appt. I hope it goes well for you.
As far as what is wrong with you, I don't think anything is. The fact is that losing weight is HARD. Millions of people struggle with it. I think that it's harder than drug addiction (with no proof of course) because you can't just take yourself out of that lifestyle and not be faced with it. We have to make good choices every day. We have to eat so we have to change the way we have eaten our entire lives.
Sorry for the rant, I am glad you are back with us! We can do this!
Yay, Carrie is back! :)
ReplyDeleteI second (or third, or fourth) that the cost of food is just ridiculous, especially when you're trying to eat healthy. No wonder so many people in this country are overweight. Do you realize you can buy ramen for 17 cents but it's like $3 for a cantalope? That's stupid. Anyway, I think cutting out dairy is a great start! Besides, so much dairy is so high in fat anyway. I've been struggling b/c I think I should cut mine down, but I love cheese so much :(
And I agree with Mallory - there's nothing wrong with you! It's hard for us all to realize the long term affects of what we do (or at least it is for me). But good for you for going to see the dr to figure things out. And I don't know about you and your body, but I know you have PCOS and so do I... anyway, I found it SOOOO much easier to lose weight once I got on Metformin (Glucophage). Seriously, I would check into it. Any type of sugar makes your blood sugar spike and PCOS makes you borderline insulin resistant, so all of it just turns into fat basically. Metformin just helps you to metabolize it more normally.
Which dr did you make an apt with?